Am i alone in this one, all?
Things i say and things i do that do NOT match at all:
Me: “God, would you give me direction for the future and show me where to work and how to serve you?”
<one week later>
Me: “God, i still need direction.”
<watch 3 episodes of the office on hulu. go to work. go to game nights. go to work. go to sleep. not stop for 2 months.>
Me: “God! I’ve been waiting on you! It’s been two months!”.
I pray twice about something. People say, “Well did you pray about it?” and i say, “Yes. I’m waiting on God.”
Me: “God, what’s wrong with me–I keep doing things I don’t want to do…why did you make me so prone to these things i do..i do’t know how to fix it but i’m asking you..”
<get on facebook and check out albums.>
Me: (in church) “I’m desperate for you, i’m lost without you, i’m desperate for you, i’m lost without you ,this is the air i breathe..”
<5 minutes later: PANNNNNNERA!!! GET IN THE CAR! GO!” ::spends day hanging out and night eating dinner with people and work the next day til 5 and then the gym::::>
Me: “God, why am I still this way? I prayed about it!” (has prayed twice and on most sundays).
If Christ is my first love, my priority, my desire, my shield, my fortress, my Father, then why do i want to talk to my friends, computer, family and own thoughts before Him? it MAKES NO SENSE. i’m not doing it anymore. Sorry if anyone’s feeling neglected. I still think you’re awesome. i’m just takin a break. :D. The more I pray, the more i regret creating these habits and the more God is breaking them all (hopefully).