Monthly Archives: May 2010

Humility: How to know if you’ve got it.

Check out this blog post with an article by Spurgeon!  WARNING: It’s intense.

I always get confused about humility — I feel “humbled” when I compare myself to others and come up wanting.  Or I feel like I “ate humble pie” when I screw something up.  Now–is that true humility?

Spurgeon writes that humility is a right understanding of ourselves.

Humility is to think of yourself, if you can, as God thinks of you. It is to feel that if we have talents, God has given them to us, and let it be seen that, like freight in a vessel, they tend to sink us low. The more we have, the lower we ought to lie.

It could be that I just always have too high an opinion of myself, so when I get a better realization of who I am (through screwing up usually) I am “humbled” by seeing myself as God sees me–a sinner he chose to rescue.  :::should stop right here, but i never do:::

In all honesty, here’s what becomes sensible to me and what I always thought WAS humility–understanding that “I’m horrible”–especially compared to those around me (you can see that already we’ve gone from God’s thoughts towards us to our own made up diatribe about our discontent with how He created the world and us.)  How is the “i stink at this” attitude we end up with even remotely like humility or how God thinks of us?

But how about when I do something right?  When I play a song I wrote because of the talent he gave me to create/sing/worship?  It’s harder for me to see myself as He thinks of me in these situations…as a daughter He’s pleased with (because I am afraid of arrogance).  So I end up with the FALSE humility Spurgeon mentions–with a “Oh, no, really, I’m no where near as good as so and so” attitude.  And I call that humility.  Shame on me!  God made me! GOD MADE ME!  I can’t tell people he messed it all up!  And I can’t tell people I did something to improve myself through hard work or practice.  HE made me hard working and persevering and He can use all my stuff cause it’s all His stuff, not my own.

I won’t tell people (sometimtes) that “my” talent is not good and I won’t tell myself (sometimes) that my ability’s mine and it’s better than some other people’s.  Enough comparing, enough explaining, enough groveling and enough self-praising.  Enough self-hating.  Enough me.  More Him.  Enough thinking that I need to be embarrassed to be humble.  Enough forgetting that God Himself made me and is listening.

p.s.: i liked this a lot too: .



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This is the ideal time to worship God

I heard a story recently from a woman in Mozambique.  Heidi was visiting the United Kingdom when one of her (many) children called from their village and said, “MOM! MOM! THEY ARE BOMBING US!” She said, “We aren’t at war!” and the child explained that he didnt know what happened, but missiles were leveling houses and churches.  She could hear explosions in the background.  “RUN FOR COVER, QUICKLY!”  This is the best part.  The little boy says, “MOMMA! THIS IS the PERFECT time to worship God!”  “What?!”  “Yeah, when will we ever be in this situation again?  God will see us worship Him while we are all in danger and pain from these explosions…maybe we will never have another chance like this worship him in THIS situation”.

An artillery factory or something similar had exploded and many people were dead by the end, but none of them were Heidi’s family members or friends.  They worshipped together as far as they could from the blasts.

So I thought to myself: “Self, every time you are having the worst day imaginable, or maybe you lose your keys or get stuck in traffic or have a horrible cold sore on your lip, or you miss home or your stomach hurts or you have to pay taxes or work is sucking the life out of you or the guy you like will NEVER be interested..THAT IS THE PERFECT TIME TO WORSHIP GOD!”  Maybe i’ll never again get an opportunity to worship God while brokenhearted or locked out of my house.

I was planning on preparing either a video or longer message on why prayer is so important to people in difficult situations.  Not as a “pray for people with cancer” (though we should), but rather as an action/weapon/privilege sick people or vulnerable people have no matter what.  For example, I know of a sweet woman who is nearby dying of AIDS and she was doing much worse recently when she didn’t have any reason to go on living anymore.  It was important that she heard the message: “YOU CAN PRAY!!!  God hears you and we need pray-ers!”  Now she has something she can do for the Kingdom.

In the same way that prayer changes things, PRAISE heals us, glorifies God and advances the Kingdom.  I challenge us all to worship Him even when we do not feel like it (probably the ideal time to do it, since who knows if you’ll ever get that chance again)—and to trust that He already knows our requests before we bring them to Him.  I am not suggesting that we should stop praying–but I am suggesting that spending 80% of the time in praise to God would be an amazing way to deepen our own times of reflection.  Praise is not a thank you, but is an acknowledgment of who God is.


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Comfort Zones and Calendar.

Have you left your comfort zone recently?

In other news, busy times coming up:

Monday: meeting Charlotte and Regina

Tuesday: listening to Heidi Baker give a talk at Vineyard.

Wednesday: Dinner with ?

Thursday: Betsy

Friday: Home

Saturday: Home/Lake?

Sunday: Shower for Bec2.

Monday: drive back, meeting that night with group of friends.

Tuesday: small group

Wednesday: Shanti with roommates

Thursday: Betsy

Friday: Providence?

Saturday: Something i forgot.

Sunday: church

Monday: are you seeing a trend?!


This: Rochester

Next: Providence

Next Next: Montreal

June open til 20th (Cape Cod)

July: Detroit

July: Farrell’s wedding

July: Bec’s wedding

July: New Frontier’s celebration thinger.

August: Family Vacation.



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English Lecture

A linguistics professor was lecturing to his English class one day. “In English,” he said, “A double negative forms a positive. In some languages, though, such as Russian, a double negative is still a negative. However, there is no language wherein a double positive can form a negative.”

A voice from the back of the room piped up, “Yeah, right.”

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starting an epic wave in fenway park

Back in the fall, I started a conga line.

It was really something.  Once about 75 people jumped on behind me, swinging their hips around and following me, i didnt know what to do!  I went faster and it slowly died (sad).  That night, I decided that my next “bucket list” item would be to start a wave–but i didnt know when or how.

Tonight, at the Red Sox/Angels game in Fenway (my first time inside the stadium!) I watched a crazy man try to start a wave.  He was nuts–every couple of minutes he would again scream 1, 2, 3…even I wasnt standing up or into it at all.  He was annoying but persistent.  I decided i wanted to help him at a more opportune time.  Then, this other lady started hollering on the other side of us.  She stood up and screamed alone..multiple times.  So I decided to run up and down the stairs looking people in the eye and screaming :  “These people want to start a wave and we can do it!”  WE CAN!  ok, “1, 2…” and they’re already going.  Fizzled out 1 or two times and people yelled “GET OUT OF THE WAY” to me.

So what could i do?  I gave up.  i began walking to my seat with a “I tried. i really tried! i thought itd work!”.  THEN…

THE WAVE STARTED.  the giant massive wave that went around twice and even jumped over the monster!  I was shocked–i couldnt believe it!  i had gotten the attention of a group of guys towards the front and even though the other people were screaming “GET OUT OF THE WAY!” my new friends would not give up and go home–they started the wave.

It was a spiritual moment for me, in a way.

1.) This is obvious but must be said anyways.  You cannot start a wave alone—waiit—-i know there’s no ONE PERSON WAVE, but i mean even to start a big wave–it takes at least 3 people.  One insane man, one crazy lady and one to bring them all together.  TEAMS.

Movements are also started this way.

2.)  If you give up, you need others to stand up for you (literally)!

Movements are also started this way.

3.) Finally, pockets of interested people popped up in our group separately — apart geographically and in terms of time, but all were able to be brought together.


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Those most affected.

My first letter to the editor of the Globe.

I read Sunday’s article about how local businesses (even lemonade stands!) are coping with our current water crisis.  I also read “A Walk for Pride” about the homeless team participating in the Walk for Hunger. While both were informative, it seems that most homeless have again been overlooked in local reporting. They’re the most affected by this crisis, and the least reported on.
I had heard rumors that the Walk for Hunger actually kicks homeless people in Boston Common out of the park, but who could believe such ridiculous claims?   On Saturday night my friends and I realized that homeless people have no way to boil water and would likely struggle to purchase it.  Today, we scoured three sold-out supermarkets for water, and ended up with 50 bottles.  We hit the Common in the heat of the day only to find very few homeless people around the usual spots.  Are the only needy people allowed in the park during the “Walk for Hunger” the ones who walk 20 miles first?  Does this seem like a problem to anyone else?  I was appalled and am hopefully wrong in my observations.

OR (if i’m wrong and the homeless folks were just not around)..

I read Sunday’s article about how local businesses (even lemonade stands!) are dealing with our current water crisis. While informative, it seems that the homeless have again been overlooked in local reporting, unfortunately left out of this article about how Bostonians are coping..

On Saturday night my friends and I realized that homeless people have no way to boil water and that most would likely struggle to purchase bottles of it. Today, we scoured three sold-out supermarkets for water, and ended up with 50 bottles from Stop-n-Shop.  We hit the Common in the heat of the day.  Are there plans to help the homeless get clean water to drink?  I petition the Globe to report on the situations of those who need water most during the next “coping” article.  Here’s hoping the drama lasts only a few days. If not, Bostonians, if you get a chance, please hand water to someone who needs it.

Becca Nelson
Boston, MA 02124

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