love appetizers!

1 Cor. 8:3:
But the man who loves God is known by God.

A wise girl explained to me during a staff meeting recently that God is love.
If I want to understand love, I need to learn more about God.

So today I thought about loving God. It’s harder for me than it should be and here’s a hypothesis of why. Here’s how i view love:

1 Corinthians 13: 4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8 Love never fails.

Now. Do i love God? No where near what He deserves, but yes. But that lack of love is because I am human, right?

Then — I asked myself questions from the passage: Am I patient with him? (lightning strikes my brain and I realize..NO.) Am I kind to Him? (Whatever we do to the least of these we do TO JESUS). Do i envy him? Am I easily angered at Him? (Can be. Don’t think I should ever be though–I do not believe being mad at God is wise or ok, but it’s happened.) He HAS no wrongs so I keep no record (though I have a false record like “Well, you did harden Pharoah’s heart and you did allow many women missionaries who wanted to get married to stay single forever and you did allow a lot of deaths of babies — but that’s a WRONG list of my own wrong thinking, not HIS wrongs).

—He doesn’t need protection…

So how can i use this list i’m used to to gauge my love for God?

I mean, a lot of the love I have comes from a desire to serve or be compassionate towards others and that doesn’t fit with God since he needs no compassion for Himself. Then — lightning strikes again— He asks us to show it to others if we love Him. be kind and patient and not rude to OTHERS–esp the low-income and harassed people.

1 John 4:20
If anyone says, “I love God,” yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen.

Ok, so I love my brothers and my sisters and even people who should be enemies. I love Osama Bin Laden! But does this mean I love God? (I’m really throwing it out there for you as a question, i do NOT know as of now).

I submit that it does not. You need A to get to B, but B does not equal A — right? Lots of people love people and do NOT love God.

So how can i learn to LOVE GOD? I think it comes from worship. Spending time realizing how AMAZING he really is–thinking about what He did. Remembering things He’s done, and promises he kept. Praising Him for how He saved me…

That’s my #1 idea — another one might be just turning to Him instead of other things when I feel sad, lonely, empty, tired, ‘hungry’ (usually i am not hungry anyways), needy, proud, happy, crazy—basically anytime. Him first–then maybe other things later.

He will always come through, and then I will love Him even more.

I don’t even give Him chances to show His love! If i did, i would see it and my own would increase.

Someday we will be with God IN HIS PRESENCE forever. This is just an appetizer, and it’s like–the REALLY small small ones that just make you way hungrier (the whole point of appetizers). I just need to remember not to fill up on bread and instead enjoy the small piece of what is to come later on in heaven and wait for the meal patiently.

And how dare i be impatient with God? Not only is it not loving–it’s stupid! He’s the master of the universe who knows the future!

Ok, So i’ve been typing and didnt think about any of this until my fingers wrote it. I may read it tomorrow and decide everything i transmitted here is wrong wrong wrong. But until then, i’m going to bed.


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  1. Dad

    I love appetizers, but usually do not buy them. I love “love”, also. “Love Appetizers” is brilliant… A good thing on the very best thing life has. “Our God is love.”

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